Wednesday, July 21, 2010

My Path to Him

After finding out that in fact the Melanoma (same cancer that was in my eye) had gone to my liver, it has been 7 weeks. Through this process I have had a liver biopsy, a flow test procedure, one treatment of radiation, and in 2 weeks another treatment of radiation.
I am an extremely blessed child of God. I have learned so much about myself in this past year or so. The Lord at times will take drastic measures to find those who have strayed away from His flock. I truly believe that was me. I wasn't completely turned away from God, I just was putting school, basketball, and friends over Him. I wasn't putting in the effort I needed to in order to fill the gap I had in my heart. When you have found Jesus and the Word, you feel whole. You get excited to read the word and study scripture. I don't question why this has happened to me, not to say I don't have bad days and cry because I am in pain. I say this because God has a plan for everyone. He knows you before you are conceived in your mother's womb. God knew that I would take these cancers head-on and fight them with all I have.
I am excited for my appointment on August 30th because I believe I can be that miracle. The one who survived cancer twice before the age of 24. I am blessed because my doctors didn't look at me and say, "You have no hope." They said, "See ya tomorrow, that's the first step in killing this cancer." I know I keep rambling on, but I want people to read my story and to get a feeling of inspiration. A feeling that they CAN beat diseases that try to kill them, not just physically, but mentally and emotionally. God is the truth, the way, and the light. He will never leave us. My wish is for others to find the happiness and joy that God has brought to me. Without His grace and His miracles, I might not be here today.


Dear 16 Year Old Me